Lockdown and soul searching

Melbourne is going through its 4th lockdown. I had my first holiday planned for this year only to see it cancelled. No more bike rides and no more beers at the pub. To make things even worse – we are going to approach the worse part of winter. Why Melbourne? The rest of Australia is pretty much returning to its “normal” lifestyle and while Melbournians are stuck at home. Anyway, I don’t have much to complain about. Nothing of my life has been affected – really. I work from home. I don’t like talking to people so I should be glad. However, I must say, I am annoyed. Not sure if it’s the lockdown, the cold weather outside or a combination of both.

I had to postpone some of the shooting due to lockdown, as you can imagine which I am not happy about. Anyway, I took on one of my old habits just to keep myself busy which is starting to profoundly help to explore my inner self.

From a young age, I have been always fascinated with drawing, painting and storytelling. I’ve experimented with various mediums and watercolour thus far is the most amusing medium to work with. I thought about this for months, trying to understand why I like it. After more than a year in lockdown and close to a hundred paintings, I am beginning to realise that I like watercolour for the same reasons I hate it. “It’s unpredictability”.

In almost all traditional art media, you can cover your mistakes. You can wipe and start over. Not with watercolours. Once you put a layer down, it can not be changed. Every layer you put on top is transparent and therefore the result is a combination of all your “mistakes”. You can be frustrated about it or you can accept for what it is and move on. Sounds a bit familiar, isn’t it? Aren’t we all working on this artwork called “life” with various decisions, plans and goals only to realise what is done can not be changed? Each of these decisions made who we are and each action, struggle, failure and pain made who we are today.

If you haven’t painted with watercolour I encourage you to take up a brush and experiment. You don’t have to be an artist. You are already a one.

Ocean Knighter, water colour painting - Reflection
Refection – Watercolour on Paper

Wherever you are, I hope you are well. Don’t let the rain outside wet your positivity. Find something you love. Spend time with people you admire. One day, not too long from now the sun will rise back.